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"The Heart that loves is always young!" -Greek Proverb

This is my favorite quote ever!!! if you are filled with love and joy you are still young in your heart.....

~anyways~

*Change of Subject*

What would i do with my life today if you werent afraid of failure?

Im not really afraid at failure but at some things i am like something i really want to do then yea im scared of it..... but i would do everything in the world to become successful in life and i would never give it up...

~anyways~

Tomorrow is mine and my boyfriends 15month (1yr and 3mths) Anniversary but i am going to be with him all day wednesday so yea lol... im so excited cuz he just bought me a new ring but i dont know when im going to get it... but its really pretty and he is also buying me a new digital camera lol he spoils me but i love it.... well im done writing i have to wake my mom up cuz she has things to do or thats what she told me!!!! well ttyl

Mwah!

*Keshia*

hey whats going on? oh nothing much here... just sitting here being bored cuz i have nothing to do... i didnt do much today... i went to my brothers and picked some stuff out of our garden that we have.... which was really boring... i did make it home in time to talk to my boyfriend before he got home so i was happy about that.... i asked my mom if i could get a tatoo on my foot and she is actually thinking about it thank god!!!! i want 2cherries..... i love cherries but i wont eat them cuz they are disgusting but i am going to stop writing cuz i am just rambling on lol well ttyl

Mwah!!!!!

*LaKeshia*

Good morning :)

Today has been GREAT for me because I got off to a good start. I missed cycling this morning but I didn't let that ruin my morning..instead I hit the treadmill for an hour and burned 500 calories :) yay me!! It felt sooooo good! I came home put the laundry to wash, cleaned the bathroom, and had a very healthy breakfast; my strawberry low fat soy shake, with an egg beaters omelette :).

I took out the chicken 2 defrost for dinner and left the potato wedges my mom loves cut up already to just be put in the oven for her dinner.

Now I'm off 2 bed to get my nap and then wake up @ 1 to hit the books until 7...

It feels so good to workout again!! My goal is to lose 15lbs..I've gained 5 since I started dating my bf :(so I want to go back down those 5 plus the 10 that I was missing..overall tho i've lost a good 20lbs so I'm really happy that I'm back on track...He'll be here in 45 min so we can take our nap together...I'm so happy he woke me up for the gym :) tomorrow it's pilates!!!!

Laterz!!

well i havnt been on here fthreeor a while so heres whats happening . i have weeks left till i retire and still think i will be board stiff after one week .well it's my mothers 60th birthday next week so my dad phoned tonight for me to organise a party for this friday as he works away from home and will be back then so most of tonight has been spent on the phone trying to organise a party in just four days and so far i have to say between me and my sister and sister in law we have sorted out the food and drink decorations and now we only need my dad to get her out of the house longenough for us to get in and do the food and decorations .we would have had it some where else but she has a heart conditions that means she doesnt get out a lot .which she hates cos she has always been on the go her whole life and now she cant but any way i sure the party will go with a bang .

i'm usually a firm believer in the fact that, no matter what is going on in my life, I can handle it. If the work is too much, then I'm not trying hard enough. If I'm tired or hurried or stressed then I am simply not managing my time well. I am imperfect but I can handle tough times.

That being said...I need help. I'm not even doing anything and I am a wreck. I graduated cum laude, 5th in my class of 163, going to a prestigious college, getting a job at a good company, thoroughly enjoying my time spent volunteering on weekends and I'm losing control. I can't be burnt out, I know I can handle it all because it's really not that much. But all the time I feel awful, worthless, out of control. SometimesI feel wonderful, like nothing can touch me and only I impose my limits, but those moments are few and far between.

Have you ever needed someome? Just help in picking up the pieces and putting them back in place? And not just someone on the sidelines giving advice but a friend who will go out of their way, put down whatever they are doing and give you a strong, willing hand? I should be able to do this myself but my coping mechanisms have become down right self-destructive and it seems like I'm caught in this vicious cycle that everyone seems willing to ignore. I can't do this on my own. I can't ask anyone to help me as it its NOT their job. I can't go for outside help since my parents won't fund it. I should be able to do this on my own since I have no other option. but what if I can't? What then?!?! What in hell am I supposed to do?! There is nothing and everything wrong and I have the sneaking suspicion that this is all in my head. Wouldn't that be wonderful? "Sorry thatI don't make perfect sense today and I simply can't manage to live throughanother houralone because I am clinically insane!"...I would be miserable. AM I alone? Am I secretly self-obsessed and abnormal? If I am losing control, will I survive the crash? Anyone else feel this way?

I like just woke up at my Aunt's house and I had like the best sleep ever. I slept for like 12 hours. Ever since I came back from camping I have been trying to ketch up on my sleeping. Well I finally did. I woke up to have my Aunts 13 week old dog licking my face. She is so cute. But then later on I found out that, that very same dog eats bugs, and other disgusting things. So I do not let her lick me anymore. I made sure of that! I wish she was my dog, but instead I have a cazy dog that is like impossible to train. But when he isn't wild he is the best doggie ever. I love my pup so much. But I wish I could have 2. But I am trying not to be greedy with my parents. But I think that my dog will be easier to train if there is another dog there to help. You no like monkey see monkey do. Yeah but my parents think I won't be able to take care of another dog. But I think there wrong. O well. I will keep asking for another dog. I will see what happens. They will probably get super angry at me. But we'll see.

Parents = crazy when u start a new relationship. When I met my bf all he did was talk wonderfully about his family and the great relationship he had with his brother and mother. When I met them I instantly liked them and feltg 100% comfortable...but as time has passed I've been noticing or picking up a weird vibe from his mom towards our relationship. I feel that she doesn't believe that this relationship is anything serious and that marriage is far from our horizon. This is because his father the other day made a comment about us getting married and she got serious and shot him a look like saying "don't give them any ideas or I'll kill u" and also when we were chatting a few weeks back she said "who ever u marry will..." and that shocked me because she didn't acknowledge that there is a possibility that I will be marrying her son.

When I told my bf this is admitted to me that she's been complaining too much about the amount of time that we spend together. That how come everytime he goes to visit her it's with me...that everyone he goes I'm with him...and he's REALLY upset with her. He loves me and he's already told his mom that he's going to marry me but she isn't taking him seriously. We aren't doing rings right now because we are in our finaly year of college and we are on a budget but once we graduate and get our job we are buying the ring and moving getting everything moving. I don't understand what this lady has against me...I've helped her son in SOO many ways...he was expelleged from the university and I got him readmitted...I push him to study, helped him decide on a major, get his gpa up, excell in his classes, quit smoking, exercise, take treatments to cleanse his lungs, start paying off his debt, quit his over demanding job that he was unhappy with and go to school fulltime...Why can't she see all the positive things that our relationship has brought upon him?

Just a few weeks back she kept insisting that we take his cousin that was visiting to a club even after he told her that he and I are more serious couple that he doesn't want to take me to a sleezy club he wants to respect me. She said "u used to go clubbing before now that u're in love u can't go" and his response was "I already found what I'm looking 4 and I don't need 2 search @ the club we are better than that"...like why doesn't she get it? We are inlove with eachother..his father sees it why can't she? She's always telling him "are u stressed look @ ur face" trying to insinuate that our relationship is causing him stress and that's why he looks "tired"...I'm even the 1st girl he takes home on a regular basis..the girl he took b4 me he took once to fuck her but his mom made them leave...so I'm really the only girl his family has had a constant interaction with...what's her deal? I'm not hoochie..I'm preppy..I dress good..nails are always manicured..hair is always groomed...I'm always studying with him...never swear...what's her deal?? My bf says it's because now that he has me he doesn't turn to her for guidance anymore and that has made her upset and jealous because I fully complete him. This relationship doesn't have problems so he never has asked her for advice like he did with his exes. When he wanted to quit his job, geta student loan, or change his major he came to me and I helped him do it all...he never consulted her once and that makes her envious of me...idk..how could a mom be like that to her sons gf? Specially when he's declared he's going to marry her after graduation...